Fat Girl

"It may come as a surprise to you - or maybe it won't - but I often do
not realize that I am fat, or how fat I am. When I am by myself I don't
tend to think about how I appear. I think about what I am doing. So when
I see photographs like that taken at the pet blessing, I am shocked by
the difference between how I believed I looked and how I did look. This
has happened before; I have believed I looked acceptably attractive, or
even pretty, and then saw photographs that showed my wide butt and
bulging stomach and those arms as big as big bolognas that hang from
deli ceilings." - Judith Moore "Fat Girl"