Big Rig Full of Valium

...that's what I need right now. My nerves are on edge and I will probably die in a pukey puddle of yuck sometime in the next week.

Here are the Top Ten Reasons Why I Am Having A Nervous Breakdown This Week :

1. money is tight - really tight
2. Rent is due on Monday
3. Ryan hasn't been paid for the last 2 weeks' work
4. I leave for New York on Wednesday
5. My half of the hotel bill alone will be $300
6. People, generally, like to eat. Especially in NY
7. Christmas is just around the corner
8. My one reliable money lender - Mom - is broke this week too
9. I don't get paid 'til the 5th...am seriously considering a 'payday loan'
10. I have this sharp pain in my right breast and I am 99.999% sure that it will end up being terminal cancer - especially with my current state of mind